If It Feels Like Your Mood Swings Are Out Of Control…

I have always had mood swings. for as long as i can remember. I was a relatively happy child, who grew up into a moody adolescent, a turbulent teenager and a complicated adult.  (Someday, I’ll tell you how that happened)

When i started having mood swings, i didn’t know what they were called. But i knew exactly how i felt. One moment, I’ll be happy, playful and carefree, the next moment, I’ll be irritable, unhappy , uninterested in anything and anyone.

It got worse as i grew up. A lot of this had to do with my natural temperament and being molested at eight but I had no one to explain what was happening to me, so i grew up into an adult who internalizes hurts, fears and negativism.

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October 13th. Two Years Ago, I Tried To Kill Myself….

I have shared about my personal struggle with depression on this blog before and one day i will probably share about how God healed me of BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder).

It’s a battle i don’t pray for anyone to have to fight. When I got this email from one of my blog readers, who is also a radio listener, i felt an emotion so great that a sob rose in my throat.

The interesting thing is i had met her before and if she hadn’t shared her story i would never have guessed she’d gone through so much. At the end of the day, this just reminds me that we are all God’s children and he’s placed us on different paths for different purposes. Some paths are harder than others. But through it all, he’s always faithful to see us through it.

Her name is KEHINDE ADEKOYA. Please read her story.

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Yes. I Do Have Depressive Episodes…

This is one of those times I have to be brutally open on this blog because not only does it help me, it can help someone else too. And most importantly, I know that God gave me this blog to connect with his children and encourage and inspire through sharing my own journey. This past week has been a struggle. For those who don’t know, I do struggle with a mood disorder that border on depression. So I had a relapse. I was out of sync with everything. I could barely function at my job, (when you talk for a living, you can imagine how hard that can be) I was miserable for no apparent reason and all i wanted to do was curl up and avoid anything human.

Did I pray? Barely. Did I read my bible and speak in tongues and do all those nice Christian things I know to do? Nope. I didn’t go to church because I didn’t wanna see or talk to people.

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