I saw a movie yesterday and honestly, throughout the movie, I was totally distracted. But towards the end at the second to the last scene, I heard these lines: Lord, crush my pride, open my heart to you.
These seemingly simple lines resounded so strongly in my heart, that I thought about it all the way home.
Crush my pride. I need that. I need it real bad, because indeed I am proud. I love attention. I like to be noticed.
Let me tell you something, I have a really imagination and sometimes, right in the middle of worship, my imagination takes over and I focus entirely on myself. Often times I worry that everything I do, the writing, the speaking and mentoring, all encourage me to glorify myself rather than God. This bothers me because what I want more than anything is to make sure in all that I am, Christ is the most visible of all.
So when I heard those words; “crush my pride”, I knew that’s a line that should never be far from my lips. So here I am a proud person, dependent on the grace of the Lord Jesus to survive.